The Bless is in the Mess…

September 16, 2011 By Lauren and Tom

Unfortunately, I would love to lay claim to that wonderful little phrase but I have to give my mad props to JT from one of my favorite blogs. I discovered her blog earlier this year and her post always seem to be exactly what I need to hear.  She is one of the most positive, determined, amazing people I “know”. Of course, I don’t actually know her but I blogstalk her on a daily basis. If not for her words but for her amazing pictures of Canada…who knew that place was so pretty?! Tom I think we’ll need to add it to my forever long trip list J

My amazing husband 🙂

 After having a back and forth email conversation with T all morning about what the heck I want to do with my life and what career path I really want to be on, I concluded that I have no idea! Of course I want to have the how, why and when of my next 3 years planned because I’m not a big fan of the gray area when it comes to my next paycheck.  Well, I click on to JT’s blog and she has written about this same topic and how she is currently dealing with it in her life…I think we would be BFF’s if we lived close.

She has the same worries as me, how am I going to get to the next ‘it”, when will it happen? Once, I accomplish that, then how will I get to the next ‘it’. Well, as she so nicely stated that feeling will NEVER go away. We will always be seeking more out of life, which isn’t a bad thing but by always looking and working for the next ‘it’ we are missing the current bless in the mess.  So, what do I want out of life?

I want a wonderful, happy, adventurous relationship with Tom.

I want to be able to run, do yoga, cycle, hike and any other physical act that my heart desires.

I want a steady job in a field that I have a passion for.

I want to be able to spend time with family and friends.

I want to achieve all I can out of life by dreaming big and not settling for less than my best.

Well, guess what?! I have most of those things currently. Tom and I have a wonderful relationship, I run and do as much yoga as my heart and body can take, I have a job that pays our bills and even though I don’t enjoy all aspects of it, it isn’t so bad. I know who my true friends are and have a strong relationship with both our families. As for my dreams, oh they are big! Tom can contest to that one. Have I accomplished them all? No, but I’m only 26 and no one ever moves forward in life without a dream right?

The men beer tasting at Christmas.
My turtle friend I made hiking.

So after a few stressful weeks, mostly put on by myself and feeling like I have to have it all figured out.  I’m learning how to find the bless in the mess, forget about the how, and know it’s not all rainbows and butterflies.  When I look at how I got to my current spot in life, I don’t actually know. All I do know is that I was living life, working hard and giving all life’s aspects my best. I guess my next steps will just fall into place just as all parts of my past have.

The best friends in the world.

As someone close to me reminded me this week, “isn’t it funny how life seems to take you towards the things that seem right for you, even when you thought they may be totally wrong for you?”  Well, life and universe, I can’t say I understand you at times but I’ll keep my trust in you.